Hi there everyone, how things are going? Argos90 here. I am writing this journal to know people who read my current situation. In a few words, things are not going good.
starting Monday, my internet service expires, that means I'll be offline for a while, i dont know for how much time, maybe i can check my accounts with the 3G of my phone, but that's all. I know i have a couple of commissions, and due i'm on vacations i dont have my PC to work on them, i use one that is older than my own account. So for my commissioners, i want you know that i will work and finish your commissions the next week, but until i have internet back, i'm cant submit them here.
And about trades, speaking of trades, maybe i should cancel all of them, my problem is that i dont feel like i can make anything right about it, everyone have their problems, i got mine, and they are taking all of me rightnow. the studing, the love, the life, their are going empty, i'm feeeling that i'm losing my life in the emptyness, like a black hole of life, i dont know.
About my studies, yes, they are going very slow, and things are about to get bad, really bad, i dont want to lose my studies, even if thats means i will close my accounts, the point is that i'm wasting my time in here, and thats a whole point for itselft, just a couple of friends keep me hanging on this for a short time, but i know that, maybe sooner than later i will be gone, you can wait that from me now.
But i must make this clear: i will not leave until i finish my commisisons, they are important and its important for me, be sure with that.
Take care, keep in touch.
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It's been 22 days since my firstborn was born. and boy let me tell you, people warned me that I as a person would take a backseat and They weren't kidding, fatherhood is difficult, it's constant, it's unpredictable to a certain extent, you learn things every day and you adapt as best you can to the situation. Thanks to my commissioners I have some money saved and in use for everything that my baby and my wife require, thank God they are both fine, goodbye to insulin but now week after week there are medical checkups for my baby, they are routine exams, to make sure everything is ok. Although I hate to admit it in all these weeks I tried by all means to separate my work / family / 3D times but it is impossible, the worst part was my 3D, zero hours and that made me nervous for those to whom I still owe a commission thatIt was postponed much longer than I would like, some are already absurd and I would like to run away, but I must be more firm and finish accepting and completing my
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It has been a complicated month doing a quick summary little and nothing I could achieve in these weeks. Demanding family, ultra demanding girlfriend, little satisfaction, little money and happy moments. I have mixed feelings about my career. On the one hand, mentally I felt as stretched out as butter smeared on too much bread, internally I was screaming: Enough, I don't want to go on but I can't quit, years and years studying, and for what? to have a regular job that won't give me as much money as one that doesn't even need a college degree. It is like a corpse under my bed in the process of decomposition that only I can smell and the smell is disgusting. That alone makes me feel miserable, a loser who did not achieve anything in this life, and yet other people more idiots than me could achieve that title before me. That doesn't help my conscience at all and of course your parents must remind you that you are nothing every day, that you have nothing the day they are gone. Recently i
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Lamento escuchar eso, si estas en esa situación, descuida, es mejor a que mejore tu estado de animo que los pendientes que tienes aqui, yo se que entenderan tu situacion como lo hago yo, asi que , deseo lo mejor para ti y que todo salga bien amigo, sabes que tienes mi apoyo incondicional, cuidate.